Benefit Concert? Yes please!

I am a planner. Always have been. So when I started this foundation I wanted everything planned out. Short term, long term and big! As scary as it may be sometimes, I know that this is what God wants us to do. Sometimes it seems daunting but if we help one person who may come to a relationship with Christ then our mission is accomplished. Of course we want to help as many people as we can and it is this purpose that keeps me going no matter how overwhelmed I feel.

God will give us the right people at the right time. At Crossover I spoke with each band. It is my dream to have a benefit concert with uplifting music. Not everyone seemed receptive and that is fine. Jackie was there to support me (I really appreciate it Jackalita). I am going to share our story everyone who will listen. I spoke with Sanctus Real and Matt (the lead singer) seemed interested. When we left I told Jackie that people who are going through or have gone through or know someone who is/is going through what we went through will be more willing to help us. People help causes that they are affected by or feel closest to. I understand that. Well later on that night it turns out that Matt is going through a similar situation. I didn't know prior to speaking with him and it truly amazes me how God weaves everything together. I can't see the design of it but I have to trust no matter what - even if it seems like it is unravelling. Please pray for him and his family and check out their music. I really like "Keep My Heart Alive" from their new CD. It's beautiful and is how I feel sometimes.

As hard as it has been Hold My Heart has been a life saver. I've always wanted a way to help others in a way that glorifies God, no matter what the cost. I've had to learn sacrifice, patience, trust (among other things) this past year. I have to hold on that this will make me and Jamie better ambassadors for Christ. I want this foundation to succeed for His will and also for my daughter. In a way it is a way that I can be a mother to her here on Earth. It might be hard to understand but I didn't get a chance to do what normal new mommies get to do. So in a way this is my way to show my love for God and for my beautiful daughter. It's what motivates me and keeps me from crumbling under the enormous weight I feel at times.

I know a lot of you support us and for that I am so thankful. There are so many people that I can and can't name that have been there for us. I hope you know how thankful we are for you. Hopefully we will have an AWESOME concert in the future!